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I feel like my life's just out of reach, but how do you grasp something you only see out of the corner of your eye?

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Just another shipwreck

I  have been feeling like shit lately.  I took the bus out of Richmond, not even caring where I was going really, just grabbed the redline to get me moved to another city, so I was heading back north.

Can't get over what I did to Sufjan, that's the sort of crap I'm supposed to avoid, I mean it really is the same shit that happened with Kayleen.

Cept it wasn't now was it?  No, this shit I did on my own accord.  Sure, i was frustrated to all hell.  I was pissed about things and I got antagonized.
but who fuckin
Who fucking hops a bus to go interstate to whip some ass?

Holy shit I gotta get my mind right.  I mean, unless this is what happens naturally?  I just wanted all this to end, I can't TAKE THIS SHIT.  i can't take the weird thoughts, the feelings, going down a road only to see the Faceless creature and NONE see him.

God help me I am SORRY Sufjan, I am SORRY I did it.  I had no right

Things are so bad, and I just can't fucking get it to stop.

and then you go and forgive me?
who the fuck does that?

Someone, just make this thing end, make it go away already. 
THE WORST FUCKING THING i s it DOESNT EVEN wiant anything

its just THERE
and its JUST WAITING

waitning for WHAT FUCKER?
here I was just looking for an answer

I just said, 'what the fuck happened to me?" and look where it got me.
those guys who said 'Don't look into it' were totally right, its been nothing but suck and ass since.

Fucking murder,  murder, murderer, and all burned to shit.  COld as fuck, haven't eaten in two days  broke as shit now too

i'm going to sleep now,
and god help me i will never wake back up.

5 comments:

  1. Stealing for food's better than dying.

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    1. I am inclined to agree.
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    2. not exactly good at that shit, pretty hard to be inconspicuous, but yeah, do what you gotta do...

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