Such an idiot. I fell asleep at 'my' place. Got woken up by a sobbing frantic 'Kayleen'. Apparently I fell asleep as I scrutinized the computer there.
and then I had to listen to the standard soap opera drill
where were you
i was so worried
do you even know what you're doing?
can't you see you need help?
we're just trying to help you.
I clenched my fist as she wailed and phoned every damn person I was told that I know. I ended up yelling at her, telling her everything.
I accused her of being in on whatever play this is, and demanded to know why she was doing this to me.
She cried. Shit, I was feeling bad, I mean everytime she does that I wonder if I'm just fucked up in the head.
I found myself apologizing, and admitted that it was hard readjusting to life. She hugged me, and sobbed into my shoulder, as I tried to be strong.
Kayleen was so warm, and yet, so wrong.
What the fuck's wrong with me that I have to throw suspicion on everything.
Maybe everything is meant to be like this.