so this isn't quite working out like I thought it would. I was sort of hoping it'd leave me alone, maybe even clue me in on shit, what it wants done, but its nothing fucking like that.
For starters, I am not certain it even understands me. Tried talking to it, last time it caught up with me. Took every ounce of my being not to run like hell, but I was tired, so tired of everything, I told Faceless that I gave up, that I was ready to serve.
Thing just stared at me.
I found myself having a one sided conversation as it just stood there, just looking at me.
"Well come on, I said I give up, I'm ready for whatever, I don't fucking care anymore."
"Do it...Come on, whatever it is, whatever commands or bullshit that happens, just do it already, I can't take this."
I even knelt symbolically.
"Just...just give me orders, make it stop...please."
Nothing. Even called it Master, which is a bitter pill to swallow.
"Come on, make me one of your guys! Make me an agent, a proxy, whatever its called, Just do it so I can be done with this life."
I resorted to trying to coax this thing into action, to do something! Here I am, covered in mud, having a conversation with a monster, and I start talking to him like he's a dog!
"You wanna proxy me? huh? Come on, you been following me, so you're interested right? Wanna just do it? Do it?"
I started screaming at it, goading him to just do whatever mindfuck it is, and get it over with. By the time I opened my eyes, it was gone again.
I am starting to think I made a very big mistake, but I just
I just can't do this shit.
no fuck that,