I feel like my life's just out of reach, but how do you grasp something you only see out of the corner of your eye?

Wednesday, January 4, 2012


Aha!  Went through a bunch of my shit just today.  Oh the malaise of sifting through things that may or may not be mine.  Found myself something that has that stupid circle with an x through it that everyone seems to identify with. 

Now I've read a few blogs, doing my research as it were, and I get that this means somewhere in my past few months, you know, back when I can't remember.  I knew about the Faceless thing.  This makes me wonder, if I forgot, or rather if IT made me forget, is it worth remembering that missing time at all?  Shit's bowel clenchingly horrific as it is when I saw it before.  This dark, inhuman shape, just looming, just  just looming. 

Fuck I'm no wordsmith, it's hard to explain unless you've had that experience.  The fact that its there, defying existence, defying nature is bad enough, and yet it is so much worse, the sheer..aura I guess, made me hallucinate.  Knowing I could die at any moment.

Still no more signs of it, but I'm still left with so many questions!  So I knew about it before, how did I stumble across it?  Why am I ...well shit, mindwiped, for lack of a better term.  I guess I can put together that this thing, this Faceless thing fucked me up, put me in a coma even, but shit, what about that 'aggressive change' Kayleen talked about?

Shit, I'd be online on the ps3 or something right now if the damn thing wasn't updating for-EVAR.  I just wish I knew  where this rabbithole ends.

1 comment:

  1. It's possible you went proxy. Hallowed, or whatever we're calling it these days. And somehow you got free, at least for a little while. Because it sounds like what happened to me...